Trying to figure out what the camera is.
Very handsome, especially in his first collared shirt!
Sweet little smile!
The only thing that will calm Edison when he is fussy is very fast twirling. He will go from screaming to smiling in seconds with this method.
My favorite pic of Eddie on his blessing day. This one is laugh-out-loud funny.We have been in Georgia for three weeks now. I feel more at home in our home here than I ever felt in our home in SLC. I am not sure why this is. Maybe it's because our home here is so much nicer. Maybe it is because I can count on one hand how many times I have left this home since we arrived. Maybe it is because we actually have our own washer and dryer here. Probably it is because we are beginning this home as a family. Our home really does feel like a sanctuary. It is peaceful and serene here. It has been a great place to meditate and to cultivate a loving relationship with Edison. We have been so blessed, and that feeling radiates in our home.
I know we live in Georgia, and that thought doesn't even surprise me. I am and will be very happy here. The only thing that makes me sad is thinking of all the people that love our lil' Eddie. I am sad that they are missing out on his life. I am sad that he won't ever know them in the way I wish he would. I am scared that their immense love for him will wane with distance and time. I am fearful that they won't know what their love for our son has meant (and will forever mean) to us. I pray for opportunities to show them.
I also get sad when I see school-related things. I am surprised at how much I miss teaching school. I only had the opportunity to do it for two years. But I miss sharpening all those pencils twice a day. I miss the butterflies I felt while I was walking to meet my students at the start of each day. I miss getting to know two whole new groups of kids-their strengths and weaknesses, their humor and sorrows, and especially their love, as well as my love for them. I wouldn't trade being with Eddie for anything in the world, though. As I think that many parents leave newborns his age or younger in the care of others while they work, I get sad because I know I couldn't bear to leave him. I am very honored to have the ability to always be with him. Just this week I can tell that he feels very safe when he is with me. Seeing me automatically comforts him. Feeling safe allows him to begin to explore the world around him. I can't put to words how it feels to be this person for him. I really am honored.
5 comments:
That is so great that you all are doing so well and that lil E' is getting so big already. I am so happy that you and your family are having the adventure of a lifetime. Those far away will always love you and yours don't ever worry about that. What is the saying, absence makes the heart grow fonder.
It's so awesome that you are blogging now. It will be fun to hear about your experiences as a new mom. Even though I was in the same situation a year ago, I don't remember it very well. It's good to hear that you are enjoying Georgia so far and I'm excited to hear more.
In that picture of Eddie on his blessing day, there is a person in the background who totally looks like me. When I first saw it I thought it was me, then I realized it looks it was probably taken at your mom's house after the blessing. Chad thought it was me too. Weird.
Sparkle, it is Amie-J in the picture (our sis). We also thought it was you at first! Thanks for reading.
I was also surprised that it doesn't surprise me to live in Georgia. I actually think I am getting more aware and more surprised the longer we live here. Go figure!
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